Switching Gears!

Been feeling lost lately, hence, no time for blogging, well, aside from the last 2 giveaways. Aren't they fun? I've been doing a lot of soul searching and trying to come to some positive conclusions and I think I'm slowly stumbling towards clarity. I work for a local community college and on an almost daily basis am referred to as "the helper.?" I'm 31 years old and have 10 years of graphic design experience so feel that I am well beyond the condescending title. With that title, for all intents and purposes, I could be an elf working for Santa. Anyhow, I've decided quite recently that in order to improve our life, I too must go back to college. Nowadays it's not enough to have an Associates and a Bachelors degree, you need to continue to educate. I'll be taking web design classes and I think that within two semesters I could most likely get a much better job. However, it occurred to me today that I think I would like to, in time, position myself to be a full time professor at this college. Honestly, it surprised even myself. Those of you who don't know me don't know that my mother is a teacher and for me, it was the LAST vocation I ever thought of pursuing because I saw how hard it was for her in the beginning. But, she was teaching junior high, much more difficult than college students. So, that's where my mind has been. It didn't help today that I saw 2 folks I went to high school with working at the college also and just based on appearance alone, I felt reduced to that 9th grade inferior feeling fat girl who knew someday she would succeed. Welp, here she is still, proud of her accomplishments, but knowing deep down that she is not done yet. I have this drive inside of me that is unrelenting and unforgiving, maybe I need to loosen up huh?

Ah, my beans...

Cohen is growing so fast. He's been moody lately, maybe he's getting a tooth. Stella's been quite introspective and questioning things in 

a way that I can appreciate. I love my kids. They are good in heart. Stella is very kind and would NEVER hurt anyone. Cohen is sweet and always smiling. God I love life right now.