Snow Day, Snow Emergency.

Rough day for me, probably because it was a Monday and it frickin' snowed, but we won't go there. Haven't posted in a while because I've been feeling lost. I'm not sure how it is for other professions, but I imagine everyday work issues are not quite the same as in graphic design. I'm not saying that other professions don't have it more or less difficult, but what I am saying is that sometimes it sucks to be a graphic designer. I am always selling myself to someone and I'm having to keep up on everything that is current and trendy, which I'm horribly bad at lately, and I'm always having to improve myself and appear hip and with it. Anyone that knows me knows that I am neither hip nor with it, BUT, I do know what I like. I am not lamenting who or what I am and I am so grateful to be a mother of 2 very healthy kids, but I am so damn tired of the devoutly cool! Come on! Sleeping till noon, dinners out every night, staying up til 3am because you were "inspired." Please, real life and real hard work comes in between working your job and your child's nap or in the morning before your daughter wakes up with her list of demands or at the end of the night once she's gone to bed for the eighth time and it's 10pm and now you're forced to work until 1am because now you must get that job done. Never you mind what you had hoped to do for yourself today. Tell me, what makes a designer? Time? Coolness? Cigarette smoking? Obnoxious pontification about frivolous topics of conversation? Or, is it simply doing what you love because it's the only thing you think about other than the everyday aspects of your life? Something inside me knows the truth is what I hope for, maybe someday I will be confident in that. :)